so close, yet so far

... So much, so much keeps happening, with this... "relationship" (?) that's technically not a relationship? It's all so weird & backwards and freefalling into this peacefully comforting, yet terrifyingly endless abyss? Haha... okay I mean - we're not "girlfriend/ boyfriend", we're not lovers (yet, physically, but our minds & hearts - whoooo!) We're just... friends & companions, but we haven't even kissed and we're already talking about... lifetime committed partnership. It's so crazy, so upside down, so unexpected and intense.
And it feels fucking amazing.

((to be continued, transcribing from paper journal))