seriously? awesome.
Feb. 10th, 2014 02:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silentwatersMy boyfriend is amazing, la la la la la
I don't know, I just have that stuck in my head like a little song on repeat, because it's 2 in the morning and he just left to go to his studio to pick up audio cables for me so I can record properly in my home studio tomorrow while he is at his office studio. (this is like a 20 minute drive away, in our only working car which has bad tires and is even riding on a donut right now.)
Like, to put it in perspective it's like the 2 am run a really nice husband would do for his pregnant wife for pickles and ice cream because she's craving it really bad.
Only I'm not pregnant, and I'm "craving" audio hardware. So he went to raid his professional stash and bring me the goods.
Seriously?
We've both been in sort of a funk these last couple of days because money's tight and there are some other career/insecurity/existential issues cropping up and we're dealing with the "real life is not always fun even when you're pretty okay in the relationship department" grown-up worrying kind of disgruntlement. He's been a little distant due to his own frustrations and I've been agitated and battling my own internal demons and feeling… I don't know… waves of my old depressed self trying to come back and take root. Which I've been fighting, but it's hard. The good news is we have kind of been doing a little subtle emotional loosening up/ reconnecting/ trying to get over it tonight, like we went on a walk and made some prayers at a local Buddhist shrine and he took me for intense chocolate dessert and espresso, then we came home and worked on audio shit and watched some nerdy documentaries (like ya do) and he seemed warmer and more relaxed, but it's not like our stressors have magically disappeared; there's still shit we both gotta deal with.
But, if my insecurities were causing me to doubt his love for me at all, they can GTFO right now because, whose boyfriend runs to get them XLR cables in the middle of the night?
This lucky bitch: >>Me.<< My boyfriend. LOL. I mean, okay, it's more than just a couple of XLRs, there's other stuff we both kinda needed and I know half the reason he left is because A)we're both still up and wired from the chocolate / espresso earlier and B) he's an even bigger audiophile/nerd than me, and it probably irks him even more than it irks me that my setup is incomplete and I wouldn't be able to properly work tomorrow without these things, but... I can't properly express the level of adorkableness he holds for me right now. And also the gratitude and sort of even... awe. That I'm feeling for him right now.
Just the fact that he would go out and do that for me… I just… explained to him I wanted to be productive and record / work on my music production tomorrow and… because I had a specific work goal in mind he is being supportive and even bringing his professional resources to bear to help me reach my goals.
Which when I think about it, is so cool of him, and really… just… humbling and empowering at the same time. He makes me feel like I can do anything.
I am going to give him such an amazing BJ for this. :D
I don't know, I just have that stuck in my head like a little song on repeat, because it's 2 in the morning and he just left to go to his studio to pick up audio cables for me so I can record properly in my home studio tomorrow while he is at his office studio. (this is like a 20 minute drive away, in our only working car which has bad tires and is even riding on a donut right now.)
Like, to put it in perspective it's like the 2 am run a really nice husband would do for his pregnant wife for pickles and ice cream because she's craving it really bad.
Only I'm not pregnant, and I'm "craving" audio hardware. So he went to raid his professional stash and bring me the goods.
Seriously?
We've both been in sort of a funk these last couple of days because money's tight and there are some other career/insecurity/existential issues cropping up and we're dealing with the "real life is not always fun even when you're pretty okay in the relationship department" grown-up worrying kind of disgruntlement. He's been a little distant due to his own frustrations and I've been agitated and battling my own internal demons and feeling… I don't know… waves of my old depressed self trying to come back and take root. Which I've been fighting, but it's hard. The good news is we have kind of been doing a little subtle emotional loosening up/ reconnecting/ trying to get over it tonight, like we went on a walk and made some prayers at a local Buddhist shrine and he took me for intense chocolate dessert and espresso, then we came home and worked on audio shit and watched some nerdy documentaries (like ya do) and he seemed warmer and more relaxed, but it's not like our stressors have magically disappeared; there's still shit we both gotta deal with.
But, if my insecurities were causing me to doubt his love for me at all, they can GTFO right now because, whose boyfriend runs to get them XLR cables in the middle of the night?
This lucky bitch: >>Me.<< My boyfriend. LOL. I mean, okay, it's more than just a couple of XLRs, there's other stuff we both kinda needed and I know half the reason he left is because A)we're both still up and wired from the chocolate / espresso earlier and B) he's an even bigger audiophile/nerd than me, and it probably irks him even more than it irks me that my setup is incomplete and I wouldn't be able to properly work tomorrow without these things, but... I can't properly express the level of adorkableness he holds for me right now. And also the gratitude and sort of even... awe. That I'm feeling for him right now.
Just the fact that he would go out and do that for me… I just… explained to him I wanted to be productive and record / work on my music production tomorrow and… because I had a specific work goal in mind he is being supportive and even bringing his professional resources to bear to help me reach my goals.
Which when I think about it, is so cool of him, and really… just… humbling and empowering at the same time. He makes me feel like I can do anything.
I am going to give him such an amazing BJ for this. :D
